She never knew

She never knew
by: emjozar

She never knew, when you stare at her,
She never knew, when you conceal your care,
She never knew, that you live in despair,
She never knew, the feelings you bear.

She never knew, the sound from within,
She never knew, how you cry from a grin,
She never knew, how you do things unseen,
She never knew, the true colors of the beam.

She never knew, how you open your door,
She never knew, the pain that sheds on your floor,
She never knew, the secrets of roar,
She never knew anything at all.

Will she ever know? What is with her?
Will she ever know? How much you care?
Will she ever know? The truth you bear?
Will she ever know that you love her?

Will she ever know? She never knew!

Malaya Nga Ba Ang Magmahal?

Malaya nga ba magmahal?
by: emjozar

Malaya tayong magmahal ng tao,
Taong malayang sabihing ‘di tayo gusto,
Pilit man nating tinatalikuran ang totoo,
Walang magagawa kundi sabihing tanggap ko.

Hindi man malimot kailangang tanggapin,
Na ang pagmamahal mo’y langit ang panimdim,
Kahit makita mo siyang iba ang kapiling,
Bulong ng isip mo’y siya’y hindi para sa akin.

Malungkot isiping kahit iyong ipaglaban,
Takbo ng tadhana’y ‘di ka pinakikinggan,
Malaya nga siyang ika’y talikuran,
Ngunit paano na ang pusong labis na nasugatan?

Susuko na lang ba ang pusong nagdurusa?
Lalayo na lang ba at pilit na kakalimutan siya?
Hindi na ba makakaya ang sakit na tinatamasa?
Malaya nga ba ang magmahal ng parusa?

 I just revived this one old poem of mine.

Ang Aking Huwaran

Ang Aking Huwaran
by: emjozar

Ang aking huwaran,
Ay ang aking tagapayo’t tagagabay,
Patungo sa isang mahabang paglalakbay,
Gamit ang iisang buhay na tinataglay.

Sabi nila’y dapat nating tandaan,
Na ang kagandahang-asal ay itanim sa isipan,
Mga masasamang gawain iyong talikdan,
at ang nagpayo nito’y ating mga magulang.

Dapat daw pinagsisikapan anumang gawain,
Mga kagandahang-aral ay marapat ding pagyamanin,
Upang mapagtagumpayan anumang adhikain,
Pagtitiyaga at pagsasakripisyo’y tandaan din.

Kabutihang loob ang pakatandaan,
Sabi rin ito ng ating mga magulang,
‘di dapat itakwil huwag na hawag talikdan,
ang mga karanasang kanilang pinagdaanan. 

I wrote this one when I was (I think) first year high school

Where Are You Now?

Where are you now?
by: emjozar

Every single day reminds me of you,
I wonder why my days are getting so blue,
The time is leaving me without a single clue,
Where can I find you? I miss you!

All day, I’ve been seeking,
All day, my heart is bleeding,
All day, my tears are falling,
Can you hear me? I’m shouting!

I’m falling apart,
Every little wound is shaping my heart,
But still I can’t see the words you marked,
Please don’t leave me in this dark.

You promised me that you’ll stay,
But where are you? My heart is astray.
Can you please take this pain away?
I love you, that’s all I would like to say.

Where are you now?

What Is Earth All About?

What Is Earth All About?

Have you ever asked yourself what is Earth all about? Who you are? Why you are living? What you are living for? What is your purpose?

It’s been 19 years and ¾ of a year since I learned to cope up with the things of this world, the planet Earth. I learned how to breathe, I learned how to listen. I learned how to keep my eyes open to see things that surrounds me. I learned how to speak in different languages. I learned how to solve mathematical equations. I learned how to be in difficulty. I learned how to face problems on my own. I learned how to walk and moved on. I learned how to travel. I learned how to be a participant of a journey called life.

Suddenly but thankfully, I found out what is this Earth all about! I learned something more than the lessons I’m learning in school. These are the lessons that make my physical body satisfied to all the things that I have or possessed. These are the lessons about the Earth, about the Heart of the Earth. What is Earth all about?

It was truly stated in the Bible from 1 John 2:15-17 that

¹⁵Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. ¹⁶For everything in the world—the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does—comes not from the Father but from the world. ¹⁷The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever.

With these of the Bible Scriptures, It emphasizes and reveals that a man who goes along the way or the flow of the world will only gain the beauty of the world but never the love of the Father because everything in this world, the worldly deeds are all against the Father.

The world or the Earth is a battlefield where humans are existing and where souls are finding their way back home. We must not be one of the lost souls. So do no love the world or anything in this world, do not love power, do not love fame, do not love money, and do not love staying in this world forever because this is not our world. Jesus told us that this is not our Kingdom.

Jesus answered, “My Kingdom is not an earthly kingdom. If it were, my followers would fight to keep me from being handed over to the Jewish leaders. But my Kingdom is not of this world.”

-John 18:36

 This world is the world of the wicked souls. This world is meant to die. This world will end in fire. We must all go against the flow of the world or its worldly deeds.

“For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul? Or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?

- Mark 8:36

What is really the profit of having too much power, too much money, too much food to eat, too much clothes, being famous, being the richest man on earth, if you do not know who you really are? If on the other hand you are going to lose your soul. There is nothing we could give in exchange for our soul. If our soul is lost, it will be lost forever. So wake up! Live not only physically, intellectually, and emotionally but spiritually. You might have a healthy body, a healthy mind, a warm heart but how’s your soul? Give time. Find out! Look at you, the innermost part of you.

We’ve been talking for quiet long but do you know for now what I’ve found out? Do you know now what Earth is all about? Do you know what is inside the Heart of the Earth? Do you agree that Hell is real?

The answers to these questions are unbelievable but we can’t escape the truth that the answers to my questions will be too real and will be very true.

After watching a documentary movie entitled “Hell is Real” I cried and I can’t stop myself to have a strong sympathy hearing the sounds of millions of people suffering and screaming in pain from Hell. It was a sound from an accident discovery of Dr. Azzacove and company.

He said

“As a communist I don’t believe in heaven or the Bible but as a scientist I now believe in hell,” said Dr. Azzacove. “Needless to say we were shocked to make such a discovery. But we know what we saw and we know what we heard. And we are absolutely convinced that we drilled through the gates of hell!“

Dr. Azzacove continued, “. . .the drill suddenly began to rotate wildly, indicating that we had reached a large empty pocket or cavern. Temperature sensors showed a dramatic increase in heat to 2,000 degrees Fahrenheit.”

“We lowered a microphone, designed to detect the sounds of plate movements down the shaft. But instead of plate movements we heard a human voice screaming in pain! At first we thought the sound was coming from our own equipment.”

“But when we made adjustments our worst suspicions were confirmed. The screams weren’t those of a single human, they were the screams of millions of humans!”

These statements woke me up and let me realized what’s behind the earth surface. And suddenly, I cannot stop myself thinking of all the things that I’ve done. The sounds, screams, and voices really scares me but then I must not be afraid because I know that God is with us and our Lord Jesus Christ will save us. Just Believe, accept Jesus as your personal Savior and act according to the will of God.

Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you

-Deuteronomy 31:6

In addition, I have seen in the movie and it’s hard to imagine what could Hell bring to a lost soul. Everything that I have seen on the movie will be just least of the reality which means that reality of Hell is more of worst than that of the representation of Hell in the movie.

Where their worm dieth not, and the fire is not quenched.

-Mark 9:44

It was warned in Psalm 9:17 for the Lost Souls.

YOU will see HELL. . .
YOU will smell HELL. . .
YOU will breathe HELL. . .
YOU will hear HELL. . .
YOU will feel HELL. . .
YOU WILL BE HELL. . .

As I have said earlier, a lost soul will be a lost soul forever. There would be no hope, no way out, no escape! So bear in mind that if you are going to die without knowing our Lord Jesus Christ, your soul will be tormented in Hell forever and ever. It’s really hard to accept but these things are TRUE.

With the story I’ve shared there is one thing I would like you to know,

It’s hard to believe that in this verse as Jesus Christ died on the cross, descended into hell and ascended into Heaven.

“For as Jonas was three days and three nights in the whale’s belly: so shall the Son of man be three days and three nights in the HEART OF THE EARTH.”

-Matthew 12:40

The Bible is clear that Hell is located inside the earth, the heart of the earth and it could be in the core.

We are just stepping miles away from Hell, let us wake up and truly live. Again, this is not our world, the Earth is all about death because everything in here deceives a man and go against the will of God. The Earth is for the wicked souls. If you will go for the Earth and everything in this world, you will die forever and ever. I’m not saying that with these facts we must start destroying our planet. Our planet is created perfectly by God and we must take care of it but then we must not let ourselves be deceived by the worldly deeds because it is the worldly deeds that make the Earth connected to the word ‘DEATH’.

The Earth is only our battlefield, we are all battling life with our souls. So don’t be lost. Find out who you are! You will only be able to find out the TRUTH if you will accept Jesus as your personal savior and have an intimate relationship with Him.

Remember that we are living not just to die, we are living for a mission, we live to live again for eternity, not to live again for eternal death.

I know, I’m not worthy to say these things to you but I’m really true to myself that I don’t want to be one of the lost souls. So wake up. My friend, this article that I’ve made will stay on Earth but I hope and pray that the lessons you will learn from this will let your soul be found and saved. It is not me who really speaks about these things, God helped me because He wants people to know about the TRUTH.

Now, ask yourself, what is your Earth all about?

Is it about living? Or dying?

Think of It! Time waits for no one.

Dream

Dream
by: emjozar

I have a dream,
My dream is still unseen,
Is it a sin?
To hope for something serene?

She is a girl!
Her hair is not curl,
But she do wear pearl
And lightens up everything that is blur.

I have learned to love her,
Even though I’m far away from her,
Even though I haven’t seen her,
Even though she can’t feel what I feel for her.

I don’t want to lose her,
I will never give her up, I swear!
If I could only have my rights to declare,
That I already got the answer to my prayer.

But then it’s all a dream?
A dream that will never come true?
Is it just a dream?
Or can I still fight and make it through?

If could only have time to share all my days to you, why not?  

Live like ants!

Why do we need to live like ants? Are we all ants? Are you an ant? Definitely not! We are bigger than ants and have more capabilities than them but what does ant have that we people do not have?

As we grow we tend to know things according to their purpose and we are trying to cope up with it. We can do several and different works, we can think about what we want to think about, we can speak or share what we want to say but what does ant have that we don’t have?

Have you ever asked yourself why ants keeps on helping each other in times when the rain is about to come? Have you ever asked yourself why ants keeps on falling in line even though there’s no one leading them, or telling them, or either commanding them to fall in line just to show respect to one another? Have you ever asked yourself if it’s possible that ants have their own government with their presidents, captains, chiefs etc.? It’s hard to answer right? It’s really hard to guess the answers to these questions and it’s hard to guess what they are really thinking but it’s interesting to know these facts about them.

Ants keep on moving, they look for food and when they find one, they will make their signals to call other ants and share the food with them so no one of them will be hungry. They always fall in line no matter how small or big the food is without the selfish thought that if they would fall last in the line it is possible that there will be no food left for them. They are really working hard not only for their selves but for the sake of all the ants. These thoughts made me proud of them.

Ants are really different from people. People are bigger than ants and have more capabilities than them but some people nowadays don’t know how to respect each other. Some people always think only about themselves. When they are hungry and find some food to eat, there’s no way for them to share it to others because they are thinking that the food they are eating is not enough for them so there’s no need to share it to others who are also hungry. Some people need to be commanded first before they fall in line, or do work. Some people blame others for commanding them to fall in line. Some people speak, shout and showing disrespect just to let people know that their time is being wasted because of falling a long line to a certain goal. Some people don’t have initiative unlike ants. Is it true that ants are better than us?

I wonder if ants know God. Is it possible? Why when I look at them I always see hope? Why when I look at them there’s always a good reason? Why when I look at them there’s always kindness? Why when I look at them there’s always care? Why when I look at them there’s always love? Have you ever asked it to yourself alone? It’s funny right? But that was very true that ants have these good qualities and beautiful attitudes.

Now, the question is, do you like to be an ant? (Kidding) The real question is isn’t it challenging that a small creature is showing all the good things you have to learn in life? Isn’t it challenging that small ants can show you what you need to be in order to reach your goal? Isn’t it challenging that being small as ants, they do know how to follow God in their simple acts? Do you want to be like them? Let us live like them. Let us live like ants. Let’s do things according to good reasons and purpose. Let us share what we have to others. Let us do what is right. Let us have our own initiatives. Let us be united. Let us live like a family. Let us care and love each other. Let us live according to our purpose. Let us do things together. Let us do what God wants us to do.

Hope that you have learned some lessons from my articles. See you! Take care. God bless! Happy New Year! Live like ants! Comments comments comments!

White Heart

White heart
by: emjozar

The wound inside me starts to bleed,
It goes slowly, it hurts indeed.
Breathing is not easy, I still want to live!
I’m almost dead, will you believe?

Moments passed, I fell asleep,
Sorrowful stories was left on my lips,
I want to shout and stand up with my knees,
But I can’t even move any of my fingertips.

New day came and I woke up,
I’m feeling so weary but then I dressed up,
I walked thru the hill and rested myself on the top,
I can see everything as I can see the world map.

While resting, I closed my eyes,
I can feel my tears as I can feel my heart cries,
After several hours, I gradually opened my eyes,
I saw myself, sitting down the hill, beside the tree where it lies.

I cannot accept the reality that I’m about to depart,
I was so sad, leaving myself far apart,
I didn’t even feel to be loved by someone near to my heart,
I died, it ends, and leaves a book of memories from my white heart.

Isolated

Isolated
by: emjozar

I started to let go of everything,
Leaving myself alone for nothing,
Thinking that I might have something,
But then it kills me from within.

I don’t know where to go,
My heart doubts my alter ego,
I can’t believe that I let them go,
Leaving myself to somewhere I don’t know.

I feel so alone and I just want to scream,
I want people to hear the sounds from within,
I want to let them know what I’m feeling,
So that I can be able to feel the air that’s so relieving.

I can’t talk anymore because I am now muted,
I can’t cry anymore because I am now blinded,
I can’t walk no more because I was halted,
And now, where is life? I’m isolated.

But then I’m glad that i can still think and write it down… Goodnight.

Infinite Shadow

Infinite Shadow
by: emjozar

Restless wind blows unevenly.
The rain drops very quickly.
The shadow of a man remained in misery.
The unpredictable space was left unconsciously.

Time passes by,
Still, the inevitable sorrow is nearby.
Every single piece of the cloud rolls by,
But the awful storm didn’t lie.

People’s very own outer space is limitless,
Its stars burns from different places.
People lived with their unique faces,
Life goes like a shadow’s traces.

One time, a light comes out from the window,
Little stories and poems are driven out of his ego.
Different colors appeared from wrecked rainbow,
Every single breathe has its infinite shadow.

The more I control things, the more i lose control!

Sleep

Sleep
by: emjozar

The Cold night have ended,
My broken heart haven’t mended,
Lonely melodies ascended,
Every simple nap was disregarded.

I was so afraid last night,
Afraid that love would have started a fight,
I felt so sad for I wasn’t able to see the light,
I can’t find the answers, and now I can’t sleep tight.

I can’t sleep for I can still remember the happiness being with her,
But then I can’t even speak because I don’t want to hurt her,
I never thought that I would wound a brother,
It hurts so badly, how can I recover?

How long will it take for me to know the truth?
How can I express that I love her without any proof?
Am I going to ignore this feeling?
Am I really awake or just truly dreaming?

God vs. Science

God vs. Science

A science professor begins his school year with a lecture to the students, “Let me explain the problem science has with religion.” The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.

“You’re a Christian, aren’t you, son?”

“Yes sir,” the student says.

“So you believe in God?”

“Absolutely.”

“Is God good?”

“Sure! God’s good.”

“Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?”

“Yes.”

“Are you good or evil?”

“The Bible says I’m evil.”

The professor grins knowingly. “Aha! The Bible!” He considers for a moment. “Here’s one for you. Let’s say there’s a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?”

“Yes sir, I would.”

“So you’re good…!”

“I wouldn’t say that.”

“But why not say that? You’d help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn’t.”

The student does not answer, so the professor continues. “He doesn’t, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him. How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?”

The student remains silent.

“No, you can’t, can you?” the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

“Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good?” (more…)

You…

You

My wonderful day starts with a simple smile from your face,
Everytime I look at you, I feel simply amazed
For me you’re the blessing and God’s grace,
You always make me happy in your simple ways.

Hours passed and the day turned to night,
Still, I can’t take you away from my sight,
How can I fall asleep if I can’t forget the sweetest looks in your eyes?
It’s an expected thing that you’re the reason why my night becomes bright.

The night have gone and the next day came,
My whole day was never be the same,
For I was not able to see you and all I can feel is pain,
But this pain won’t stop me from loving you, again and again.

It wasn’t easy to have this emptiness in me,
Being with you is where I want to be,
You’re the reason of this sudden misery,
But then you’re the completion of my story.

       I made this one together with Ms. Shaine Maala while we’re chatting this late afternoon. It was fun to make a single poem with two minds at work. We made it just easy and just quick. I think it took just 20 minutes or less to finish this one. Hehehehehe..

The Unsaid

The Unsaid
by emjozar

It was winter when I found you,
It was summer when I got to know you,
It was an accident that you’ve got to know me too,
Now tell me, is it also an accident that I fell inlove with you?

Our place seemed to be so far away,
I can feel the pain whenever I try to think of you every single day,
I can’t find any words and reasons to stop you from staying away,
But I’m so unfortunate because it have to go this way.

I always wanted to be with you,
I’m also hoping that you feel the same way too,
But I think it’s near to impossible for you to love me too,
But then again, it was meant and there’s nothing I could ever do.

I have an unsaid and tricky emotion,
I will never ever try to state this in motion,
I love you, this is my heart’s proclamation,
It was left in the air, when you went in different destination.

I wonder where she is right now… hehehehe..

People’s Manual: The Holy Bible

       When I was young, I live my life without knowing my direction, without knowing my purpose and without even knowing who I am until one day I found out that everything has it manuscript that is basically known as a manual. A manual is a little document that indicates the uses of a certain object. It says what the object is, how to use it and how to prevent it from breaking.

       Little by little I learned to understand these simple truths that if every single and little thing has it manual, people must have their own manual too and it’s none other than The Holy Book of Life, The Holy Bible.

       The bible is the people’s way to righteousness, without it our life would become so miserable. It was said that it’s better to live with a Bible alone than to live in a mansion without a Bible, for the mansion only gives shelter while the Bible gives Life, true life, everlasting life…

       Have you ever read the Bible? Have you ever tried to look at your own document of Instructions? Have you ever known who you are and what you must do? These are the question that’s so intriguing

       Some of the people nowadays uncertainly doubts the contents of the Bible and totally doubts the Bible because they don’t really understand what it is and why it is made. Well, I should say that it’s their lost but then I simply care, so I decided to make this article for them to totally change their views about the Bible or the Holy Book of Life.

       Bible was said to be made by different persons from different countries but it was originally founded totally and definitely by the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. Why? It goes this way. It was founded by the Father, for everything existed because of the Father. Every little thing on Earth was made and created by our Father, God Almighty. Every story of our life, the date we were born, the place we would live was all written in the Book of Life. The bible was also founded by the Son, because Jesus Christ our Lord is the way to the true living. He is the way to the light, and absolutely He’s the way to our God. He was sent here on Earth to let us see the love of God for each and everyone of us. He is the reason why the Bible was said to be the Holy Book of Life, for we can only see the true essence of living if we would just read the contents of the Bible. Jesus Christ is the begotten son of our God Almighty, He is our Lord, our Savior, and whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. (John 3:16) Jesus Christ is the main topic of the Bible. He is everything we need in order to have an eternal life. Lastly, it was also founded by the Holy Spirit, because without the presence of the Holy Spirit there would be no Apostles who were used by Jesus to write and spread the Words of Wisdom or the Words of Life. The absence of the Holy Spirit would have put the world into its bitter end because the Holy Spirit is in everyone of us. The Holy Spirit lets the assigned people to do their works to continue spreading the Word’s of Life through the Book, The Holy Bible.

       If you’re not convinced, try to read the Bible and you will realize that every word inside it was made very true and very expressive. The content of the Bible does not say directly its true meaning for it was made Holy and Sacred. It is hard to understand the Bible if you doubt it, it’s really hard to cope with every sentence that was written inside it but if you trust and believe our Lord Jesus Christ, you will understand everything about it, about yourself, about your life, about the reality, and about the Truth.

       Here is one of the warning, please don’t doubt the Bible if you don’t want to be doubted in Heaven by our Lord, our Savior Jesus Christ and our Father, God Almighty.

       Bible is not just a Book made by man. It is a Book of life made by our Father, our Savior, and the Holy Spirit.

       Thank you for reading. I hope that you understand everything now about our Manual, the Holy Bible. That’s it, and that’s all. God bless you.

Heart’s Day…

       Today it’s just like an ordinary day.. I’m stressed and so tired.. There’s nothing new.. Its been a long time since I wrote my last article about moving on.. Unfortunately, I don’t know if I really moved on.. And now, it’s hard to find some free time to make new articles here.. I’m so busy with my life.. I want to rest but I can’t.. *Sigh…
 
       It’s really hard to figure out why I can’t sleep early at night.. What am I thinking? What’s going on with me? Why don’t I have peace of mind? I can’t even figure out how to place my body on the bed.. It’s hard.. What should I do? I prayed last night but still I can’t fall asleep.. Is it about a girl? Or someone? Friendship? Chess Career? School? I wonder what it is.. Am I inlove or something? Or just having Infatuation? Now what?
 
       *Sigh, I’m going insane.. Maybe I just need to heat some water and drink coffee.. I want to wake up… Anyway, Happy Valentines Day Everyone!

Move on!

       Tonight, I’m writing this letter right away. I can’t fall asleep. I can’t even close my eyes. I can’t even feel that I’m tired throughout this day. I really want to sleep but something’s bothering my mind. I want to think of that something but I can’t even identify it or think what I should do about it. This is crazy. Something bothers me for an unidentified reason. I can’t make a move without any idea about that something. I was about to go insane. I want to move on! I want to move forward! I want to forget these crazy little things, infatuations, lies and whatsoever. 

        I cannot take this no more! I want to live just as like my life before. I want to have a total change. A cool change that will make me stronger than what I am before and at the present. Tonight, I promise to myself, with all my heart and my soul that tomorrow will be a new day and a new start. Tomorrow will be the sunrise of my endless sunsets. I would like to thank my mom for being my inspiration in writing this one. She keeps on telling me to let go of things who makes me weak and I’m acting on it. I hope that today would be the last day of these bitter memories. I really want to move on! And I know that I can do it. Yeah I can do it! Thank you Lord for I know how to speak. Thank you for making me what I am today. Goodnight.

A moment to remember…

Love or just another crush?

  A while ago, I was in silence.I’ve been thinking of someone, someone whom I can’t be with. I felt my heart beats. I felt my heart cries. I felt my heart tears. I felt so weary, so alone and was about  to lose myself inside. I love her but why can’t I be with her? Does age matter? Or age doesn’t really matter? **sigh** What’s going on with my heart? Am i just losing   myself or I’m just truly falling inlove or just another crush?